A Place for Me

I saw the movie last night and I really don't have alot of words to discribe it. It was real. It was intense. It was beautiful. I don't blame Jews for Jesus' death. We are all to blame. He died to set us free. The whole movie I kept thinking, "He was thinking about me when He endured this." Me! Everyone! He even died for those that persecuted Him and put Him to death.

I cried through most of the movie and there were parts that made me just bawl. I used about 6 tissues and my shirt was covered in tissue fuzzies. When the credits rolled, I had to sit there a minute to compose myself and then afterwards made a beeline to the car. I think Jonathan stopped to talk to someone we knew, but I couldn't talk to anyone. We drove in silence to pick up the baby and then home.

This morning Jonathan and I discussed parts of the movie and he had cried too during the really heartwrenching parts. He said he had to bite his lip to keep from crying out loud. We talked about how most of the best parts were when the actors didn't talk. So much was said thru their eyes and body language.

I highly recommend this movie whether you are a Believer or not.

Well darn if I didn't get a ticket this morning! AH!

I was coming off the exit ramp of the interstate and made an illegal turn. Only I didn't realize it was illegal. Then I drove up on a curb (only slightly::oops:) to get around a car and turn right cuz I was in a hurry.

A little background: Where I work, they assign parking based on your "position on the totem pole". Needless to say, I don't get to park in the deck up the hill. I have to park in a "remote lot" about 10 blocks away and take a shuttle bus in. Well, when I am running late, missing the bus makes me even later.

So anyway, I was running a few mins late this morning and didn't want to miss the bus so I took an alternate route trying to get to the lot hopefully a little faster. The only time I have ever done this and I get caught! Darn it! So I got a ticket. My first ever ticket.
Shoot a monkey!

I hope it's not expensive cuz I just bought some new clothes ::oops::

A beautiful quote from a friend....

"Let your heart break for the things you can't change, let it heal through the things you can. Keep it soft and pliable. It's a beautiful thing. Remember who holds it. Even when it breaks."

It breaks my heart sometimes just thinking about all the things that go wrong in this world. All the hurt and pain. I just wanna save the world and I know I can't. I can't even come close. Only God can do that through his Son.

But I do wanna make a difference. I do want to make a lasting impression by how I try to live my life for God. I want to be a vessel.

The other night I dreamt of an old friend. We were walking through the woods, destination unknown, arm in arm. It felt good to be there with him and I remember feeling a sense of having missed this person terribly and being glad that he was there again.

We drifted apart after I rededicated my life to the Lord because he was still into partying and sleeping around. Our lives together didn't make sense anymore and we didn't have much in common. The last time I saw him was about a year and a half ago, and it was very awkward. I still think about him and I wonder if he will ever come back to the Lord. We used to go to church together, that's where we met. He knows the truth, he just refuses to live by it.

I am amazed that we can do that. I did it for a few years. I knew the truth of God's love and how he sent his Son to die for me, but I wanted to live the way I wanted even though I was miserable. I kept searching for something to fill the void in my heart that only He could fill. But I KNEW it was him. It just amazes me.

I know I dreamt of him for a reason so I send out a prayer for him today. Lord, penetrate the shell covering his heart and cover him in Your love. Remove the scales from his eyes so that he may see Your truth. Amen.

I was trying on my pants the other night trying to find something to wear. Now, I know I shouldn't be complaining because this is a good thing, but all my pants are too baggy. Especially in the butt. I have gotten so much slimmer, I am gonna have to buy more pants. Most of my smaller clothes are more for summer. I don't have many things I can wear now, especially casual. I need to go shopping for some new jeans $$$ :D

Last night I went to take off my jeans to get ready for bed and all I did was unbutton them and slid them right off. They were still zipped! Oh, man I can't wait for summer!

Oh, speaking of summer, I tried on my bathing suit to see if it fit yet, and the bottoms do, but my boobs are still too big for the top. Hopefully not for long.

Wonder how Sillygrrl is doing on her program.....:)

I keep forgetting to post about this :oops:

My baby girl is walking. She started taking a few steps here and there about 2 weeks ago. Now she is getting better and better and going for longer distances.

She just turned 10 months on Saturday so she is ahead of most babies her age. We know a couple that has a son who is 15 months old and he just started walking too. I know babies develop at their own pace but I can't help being proud! :D

I didn't realize that there is not much to do in Birmingham if you don't like to party. Sure we have bowling alleys and ghetto putt-putt courses, but you have to wait about 2 hours until you can get in to play. Saturday night me, Jonathan, David and Emily went to eat Mexican then we headed to the bowling alley across town to bowl. We were all looking forward to getting OUT and doing something besides watching a movie. The first bowling alley had a 2 and a half hour wait. It was about 9pm and there was no way I was waiting that long to bowl. I mean, I had a baby to get back to.

We called two other places and their wait times were a little less, but after you factored in the driving time to get there, it was just as long. I was so irritated and my brother didn't understand why I didn't want to just wait for a lane. He'll understand when he has kids.

So we ended up going back home and watching Antwone Fisher. It was so sad to think that someone actually went through all that as a little boy.

Anyway, I started thinking of opening a bowling alley on our side of town. But it would take a butt load of money and I wouldn't know where to start. Plus, I wouldn't want to serve alcohol or let people smoke and that might hurt business but I woundn't sacrifice my morals to make money. So it was just a thought.

This is a fun test. I scored 80% (Dixie). That is a pretty strong Southern score!

Test yourself!
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I know alot of you will think I am strange when I say this, but that's ok.

Britney Spears has been on my heart all week. I know she is going thru a spiritual battle right now and I feel like the Lord has laid her on my heart to pray for her. So I have been obedient.

I read in a magazine that she was seen at a Bible Church with her mom and even went down to the altar. But she's also been seen reading Conversations with God which is a New Age religion book. I just pray that she finds her way. She really needs Jesus.

I can't wait to see this movie even though I KNOW when I see it I will cry for probably hours afterwards.

I went to Fandango.com to get tickets and all the 7ish shows are already sold out. At first I was bummed, but that is really a good thing. The movie hasn't even opened yet and some shows are already sold out.

Despite what the critics are saying about this movie, I think it will do well at the box office. I am so proud that Mel Gibson saw the need to make this film. I know it will touch many lives, as it already has.

I saw his interview Monday with Diane Sawyer. I hate the way these reporters ask questions like they would of a child. It was like she was humoring him, dare say patronizing him. The secular media likes to make Christians (or I should I say Believers) look like fanatics. And I guess we are, or we should be. But that's a good thing. What is wrong with being passionate about what you believe and have faith in?

Anyway, whatever your faith or religion, or lack thereof, I think this movie is a must see.

I saw this show on one of those TV channels like E! or maybe the Travel channel about this shop in NY that sells different kinds of peanut butter sandwichs.

Why can't we have one in Alabama? :(
I am thinking of ordering some and making my own sandwiches. But it doesn't exactly fit into my whole diet thing.

Anyway, here's the http://www.ilovepeanutbutter....

This week has got to be better than last week. Last week wore me out big time. So far it has started out ok. I was on time for work which is a major accomplishment considering I had maybe 4 hours of sleep. I was up most of the night because of Rayna.

My little punkin is sick. She's been coughing and had a snotty nose. :? I can only imagine how she breathes while trying to nurse, take a bottle, or sleep. Poor baby. And it's keeping me up too so Poor Mommy! :)

The new bridesmaid dresses will look alot better I think. I got mine and Jackie's in the mail on Friday and I tried it on right away. I also found shoes for us this weekend for less than $10 a pair, which is so awesome!

I had a Premiere Jewelry show at my house yesterday and it went well. I ended up getting about $100 in free jewelry which was cool. My friend quit her job to do this full time so she could spen more time at home with her 2 daughters. So I helped her out by having a show at my house.

Oh, yeah, most importantly I got the diamond necklace I wanted and it is BEAUTIFUL. Jonathan did such a great job. It is a 3 stone necklace and the stones are stacked and get bigger as they go down. It's so pretty. :)

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

Well, I think the dress fiasco is settled. I won't bore you with all the ugly details, but basically she bought new dresses and is mailing them to us (she lives 4 hours away) so that we can try them on. I hope they fit better than the other one. The new dress is a salmon/coral color.

I don't know if she is still upset with me for voicing my concerns and disappointments but I guess eventually we'll all get over it.

It probably seems like Jackie and I are being totally selfish about this whole dress thing. But I know I was right to speak up. As a rule, you should ALWAYS take your hardest to fit bridesmaids to try on dresses so that you know the wedding party looks pulled together. She didn't do that so that is why we are in this mess. I KNOW if she had seen Jackie in this dress she would not have chosen it. It looked that bad on her. She looked like an adult wearing a junior bridesmaid dress or something. It wasn't age appropriate at all.

Anyway, I am sure I have bored you all week with this dress thing, but this was a major thing going on this week and I needed to get it off my chest.

I will be off tomorrow to spend time with my beloved.
I hope you all have a relaxing weekend and a wonderful Valentine's Day.

I was just on the phone with Jonathan and I was telling him that I knew what he got me for Valentine's Day. Here's the convo:

Jon: Don't bring my gift to lunch Friday, your gift won't be ready until Saturday.
Me: Won't be ready? Why?
Jon: Cuz it just won't.
Me: I know what it is.
Jon: How? What is it then?
Me: A diamond necklace.
Jon: Maybe, maybe not.
Me: Well, I have been hinting for one so...
Jon: Well, I wasn't happy with the first store, so I called Shawn (a friend) to see if he would make one for you and that's why it won't be ready. I just now left his shop.
Me: Jonathan! You didn't have to confirm it was a necklace! So that's why you called to talk to Shawn last night! I was wondering.
Jon: Well, you said you knew and plus I know what you got me (a watch).
Me: *laughs* You are SO bad at keeping secrets!
Jon: I know, it was killing me!

Rayna was so restless last night so my sleep was constantly interrupted. Maybe that is why I didn't realize the alarm had been going of for about 20 mins. I was determined to go to the gym this morning. I left a little late but I was gonna try my best to hurry so I wouldn't be late for work. Well traffic was slow because it was raining out. When I finally got to the gym I realized I had left my work clothes at home. Geez, could anything else go wrong! I called my brother and he said he couldn't bring them because then he would be late for his 8am class. So I called Jonathan nearly in tears and told him what I did. He sighed really heavy and said he would bring them down here. Poor Jonathan. I can be scatter-brained sometimes and he always pays for it. So he brought me my clothes but I was still 10mins late to work. Well I get here and the email from Jenny is waiting on me. My heart was going ninety to nothing. Well you know how that went if you read the previous post.

So anyway, this week has not started out well. I really hope it ends well. I really really do.

I am such a horrible friend. When I couldn't get Jenny by phone I emailed her about my thoughts on the dress. Later in the day I was second guessing myself. I mean it is HER wedding and who cares what I think about the bridesmaid dress and that I wasn't asked to go shopping for it. I took my bridesmaids shopping so that they could pick one they liked but not everyone does that. I thought she would but she didn't and I got my feelings hurt. Well, she emailed me back and said how hurt she was and that all these years we have been friends I had never hurt her, until now. I feel so lousy. That's what I get for opening my big mouth. When something bothers me I don't hide it too well, so I thought the best thing to do was to be honest. I think that was a terrible idea.

I talked to Charity (sweetpea) about it this morning and she said I shouldn't feel bad, but after reading her email and seeing how hurt she was by what I said, I feel horrible. I am so selfish.

Lord, I hope this doesn't damage our friendship. Help me make it right.

AGRR!! I am so irritated right now. And not just over one thing either, it's several things. Gah, I just wanna go home and start fresh tomorrow.

Irritation #1 My friend Jenny who is getting married has picked out the most horrible dress for anyone other than a perfect petite body. She did not ask me to go dress shopping with her and instead asked another bridesmaid (with a perfect body type) her opinion who she has known far less time than me and I haven't even met her. I am upset that I wasn't asked to be more involved. That may seem selfish to some of you but I am the one having to pay for this dress, and it's not like Jenny LOVES it and can't live without it in her wedding, she just went with Avery's decision and it makes me ill. Also she never said, "OK this is the date you need to order your dress by in order for it to be in in time." Jackie and I found out yesterday at the shop that they need our order no later than today! We have tried calling Jenny and emailing her and can't get in touch with her.

Irritation #2 This new HR system that they have implemented at my work sucks. It never seems to work correctly and the people on the support line are NO HELP whatsoever. I have wasted more time than I care to say talking to these people without getting any answers. I mean if you are gonna put in a new program company wide then at least have ENOUGH KNOWLEDGEABLE people on staff to help answer questions. These people on the help line know as much as I do, which doesn't help me AT ALL. I am so tired of dealing with this crap I just wanna scream.

Irritation #3 Jonathan's company has a major load of work for them to do and they can't settle on a schedule that will work for everyone so they keep flip flopping. One day they are M-F, then next day they are 7 days/week, the next day they are 3 on 3 off. It's so frustrating because I hardly see him and now he has to work this weekend. Valentine's weekend. So now if I am going to see him at all, I have to take off work Friday just so we can go to a nice Valentine lunch and spend a little time together before he goes into work Friday night. This SUCKS!

I remember as a child thinking grapefruit was terrible. I always knew when my mom was on a diet because she would eat it all the time.

Well, I am trying out new fruits and I bought a huge grapefruit at the grocery store last night. I just ate it for my midmorning snack and it was soooo good. Really juicy and tart with a touch of sweet. Yum!

Not sure why I haven't blogged about this yet. Anyway, Chris came by last week during the day when I was at work. It may have been last Friday. Well Jonathan was at home so he saw her. She came and got her stereo and some other small things she left behind. She also left me a note. I was gonna type it all out but I'll just give you the highlights.

She said thanks for everything and that she knows I did alot for her and she appreciates it. She also said she is sorry that things didn't work out like I wanted them to but that she learned alot from me even though it may not seem like it. She gave me the address and phone of where she is staying and told me to call her if I needed anything and she wants me to keep in touch and tell her how Rayna is doing.

I am glad she left me that note. She doesn't talk alot especially about her feelings so she would prolly never have said that to my face. I am glad to know she was grateful for the things we tried to do for her and teach her. I did all I could and I hope that the example I lived before her left a lasting impression.

Well, now that she is gone Jonathan is grateful that he can now dance around the house in his underwear again without fear of her coming home and catching him :D
Ah, it's the little things that make him happy......: :lol:

Ok, I just read the "Bad Comment" and it was so lame I am not even offended. Whoever wrote that is so immature and ridiculous it would be a waste of time and energy to get worked up over it.

This isn't the first unsigned comment I have gotten. I usually delete them because they are rude, unsigned and make no sense. A fifth grader has better grammar skills.

Anyway, whoever you are, grow up and if you are trying to get under my skin you'll have to try a little harder. At least have the guts to sign your ridiculous comments, and if you think I am so boring stop visiting my blog.

My heart beats wildly in my chest as I write this. Someone emailed me saying they were so sorry about a certain comment written on my blog. I haven't seen it yet and I am not sure I want to. My first thought was to delete it without reading it, but I know how curious I am and if I go to the Comments page I will probably read it.

What should I do? Should I read it? Should I leave it or delete it? Did the person leave their name?

If the person didn't leave their name then they are a coward. I don't even know what they said, but the friend that emailed me lead me to believe I was attacked because of my beliefs.

This is unbelievable:

This is so stupid but true... and it's going to drive you crazy!



While sitting at your desk, lift your right foot off the floor and make clockwise circles.



Now, while doing this, draw the number "6" in the air with your right hand.



Your foot will change direction and there's nothing you can do about
it.
:shock:

Last night I went to the gym thinking we were having aerobics class but they were having something called Manic Monday instead. It was like a vendor show or something. Since I was there, I went ahead and did 30 mins of cardio on the elliptical machine. One of the guys that works there hadn't seen me in a while because I hadn't been going since Rayna was born. So anyway while I was on the machine he comes up and says, "So you're a mom now? How's it going?" I told him things were great blah, blah, blah and that I was getting out of my lazy phase. Well the lady on the machine next to me says, "You are a new mom looking like that!" :shock:
I was so flattered. That was the best compliment! :D

So anyway at this Manic Monday thing they had this lady there that would analyze your skin for free. You had to stick your head in this box thing and it had a curtain to keep the light out. There was a purple light inside and it was supposed to show all the problem areas on your face. Oh man :shock:, I don't care if you are the most beautiful woman on this planet, if you stick your head in there it makes you look like a monster. I had burgundy splotches all over my face and my eyes looked milky. Ugh! It was so nasty! But the lady said I had pretty skin and I was thinking, what are YOU looking at? LOL She said the splotches was only my makeup and I had just a little sun damage on my nose from being burned a few times (very true). She also said I had poor circulation under my eyes because the skin there was a little dark. All in all it was pretty cool, but I am glad they had the curtain so no one else could see! :oops:

They also had a girl there giving 3 min massages for free and I got one. She said if I call and make an appointment for a 1 hour massage I would get $10 off. Maybe I can hint around and get it for Valentines Day :D

I slept late this morning so I wasn't able to make it to the gym. I'll have to go tonight. I am determined to go everyday this week!

Did anyone hear about the dude that put out an ad on the internet looking for someone that was willing to be eaten? The nasty part about that whole thing was that someone responded.

The guy won't be charged with murder because the eat-ee asked to be killed and eaten.

Messed up folks, I tell you what.

Heres the article http://www.dw-world.de/englis...,3367,1432_A_712621,00.html

I need help finding out who sings a particular song. It is a man singing and the words are something like this:

It's alright
if you don't wanna go home
It's alright
if you don't wanna be alone

I understand I understand I understand

Anyone know what I am talking about? I think I used to have it on CD somehow (maybe a movie soundtrack?) and I heard it in a store the other day.

Help!

Man, I had a busy weekend. Saturday I had a baby shower at 10:30am, then a birthday party at 2pm, another birthday party at 5pm, and after that I had to go to WalMart to buy another gift to take to a bridal shower that was yesterday afternoon. So I had 4 functions to attend this weekend plus another coming up on Sunday for my step-sister. This is not to good on the checkbook.

I was so excited to try on all my pants from before I got pregnant and most of them fit well. There are a few that are a little snug that I tried on this morning, but that's ok. I will be in them in no time. I told Jonathan Sunday as I was getting dressed for church that if I knew losing inches from my waist was going to be this easy I would have gotten in the gym sooner. The BFFM Program is really working. The pants I wear to work alot are actually baggy now :) YAHOO! I am so excited about this!